honesty box

so honesty box really cracks me up i was sent this message below today......

STOP WALKING AROUND IN SEARCH OF MY (and other ppl's) APPROVAL. PLEASE JUST BE YOU


i reply bk:
So Mystery Man....where did you get this idea that i wanted YOUR APPROVAL or anyone elses...Cause HONESTly Im not....plain and simple...im happy with who i am....so who are you???


so please correct me if i state wrong....i nor my best friend ever recall of me being unhappy with myself. like really are you that head strong to think i need your approval on anything i do in my life youve got to be on some crazy drugs...then only aprroval i need is God...yes MY God is the only one i love to for any answers..its really funny how you think i need YOUR approval for anything i do in my life....

im ready to go off....

im real sick of the screaming you like to do...and the lies you love to tell...so you want me to leave the house so u can handle yo shit and i got sit at another house which i could be prefectly fine right here...hell naw..im really bout to go off n aint nobdy gone like me...im sick of being the one who gets the short end of the stick and noone ask how i feel and if i wanna go...ive only been gone a year and you expect me to keep coming bk afta this...that will be "HELL NAW".....ive gottin that dam short stick for the past 8 years...its not gonna happen anymore...i refuse...

faith

faith is all i have.
no more hope.
no more love.

faith is all i have.
i have faith that things will work out.
i have faith that God will take care of it all.
i have faith that im learning from my mistakes and it takes time.
i have faith that i am heeling from all the hurt and pain he caused.
i have faith that i will get that house a the young age of 25.
i have faith that it will be paid for before i leave for grad school.
i have faith that im going to higher places in my life.
i have faith that he will one day love me like i heart him bexause love is so much deeper.
i have faith that i will not hurt anyone for saying that i faith for that love.
i have faith that someone will show me hope once again.
i have faith that love will find me once and be true love that the imitation love will never slip through.

i just pray i dont loose my faith..................



still wrapped up.....

all in one

so monday i went to Santez grave site..........wasnt easy at all. i truly believe that im not gonna be able to get over this for a while...just going places without him and church without him sitting right nex to me jus is weird..jus imagine your life without someone who you care for deeply and they are no longer there. sucks right...i know 1st hand..anywho me momma anita pops walker, his sis (by the way is a hsgrad nex week YYAAAYY) and lilbro plus grandma and my momma....i only wish he could be here...so much to tell him.


next topic...so i feel like ppl dnt understand me and relationships...well i dnt do well in them ever since yes, i got my heart broken....its just not the same..i met a nice guy then he turns into a load of bullshit....but the resent guy isnt just i think im on another page which i have tryed to let him know but doesnt understand...then there is the mr. ex huband....something is tellin me to wait wait and you will know what is right with that situation...well sorry but i dnt wait for anyone not even my mother....you either want it or dnt...we are way to grown to be playing these childish games of life....i have a plan and im gonna check every bit of it off my list....im gonna graduate and make something of Faith Foxx....im gonna go to grad school in chicago or new york..im gonna travel the wrold and met so many different ppl...ill be damned if i move back to memphis and live there till my time to go home.....i refuse on it absolutly.....so while you think im gonna wait im not im gonna be on my merry f'in way and get that money the way i know how....im sick im making something a priority and not an option like i have been so many times...i guess this trophy you refferred me to isnt worth much...well damn if thats how you feel....

oh ladies if you live with your man and your not married i beg of you to have that XXX bank account...you never kno when your gonna need that money..some say is wrong to have this but i am a frim believer that all women need it...man change as do women but there comes a time when you break up and then things start to fall apart...where are you gonna go..wil your family take you in like you think they would or arew you in another city si you need to get away from him is he PSYCHO crazy...well that money will be there when you need it...he doesnt know about it. the only two ppl that should is that best friend who was your friend 1st and wont tell him or that oh so concerned family member...cause i he gotta do is call YALLS bank and freeze the account or even take you off....have we as ladies not learned from the movie ENOUGH!!! but im on some real life shit right now....jus do it!!!


so i recently lost another close friend by the unthinkable MURDER...well i found out that it was a hate crime becuz he was gay....i thought i lived in a better country then that but i guess not....well this is a message to his killer:
i dont know you, you dont know me but you took a man off of this earth who was truly needed...not matter what kind of life he chose God never gave you the right to murder because God would never do such...so know tihs YOU WILL BURN IN HELL SLOWLY!!!

cell phones are overrated...



im still all wraped up believe it or not......

almost here.........

so its almost the bestfriends day of birth and its the 21st...sucks we cnt party. ill be bk...this is gonna be hard...LOVE U SANTEZ DIBRIEL WALKER!!!!