back at it.confused.yet hurt all in one

so im abck it i once again in my life. so the bestfriend that still lives got married and now is in the navy. a lifetime committment.yea so not cool with me but he is grown i cant make decisions for him. im sitting here looking at pictures over and over again..i cnt seem to get him back this time.there is not gonna be a call in a few weeks days or even months there is no coming back to this point where we once were at with each other. everyone new we were bestfriends..everyone new that it was ez n nik..no one every tried to break that up until she came along and i didnt make it clear enough to you or her that me n you been in it to win it for a long time and that she could be apart of it for your personal sake...im so not a blocker never have been never will be...but i got a red flag when she got an emailed me bout moms..his moms that is...you are kicked off the list when you say nasty words about the parents no matter what has happen even if they are wrong you never do that..its just wrong to call them out of their names..i hope and pray this move was your decision and not her's cause i can see your already living in hell...yea you been there since the record store night. i could tell in your eyes. this wasnt somthing you wanted to stick with but you did for the sake of love you thought you were in. i only can as about you now thur grandmother..she says your ok but who really even knows if you are..i love you so much you would understand it.so what im gonna do is continue to pray about it and not worry cause the only one who holds the key to our hearts is really God.. he is the only one that make it better or should i say make a rainy day into a SUNNY one with birds singing.