go wit that feelin

you ever

you ever had that day where everything went the way you wanted it to. the bestfriend who was always there for you when ever you needed them. ever begin to like someone and fall to hard to fast. ever thought you new someone and didnt know a damn thing about the. remember how you were in love with that high school sweet heart. they did every thing right. played a great game got an all A on their report cards. it just seems when i get what i like and want..something is wrong with it. if you know me then you know that i dnt like to argue over anything thing big or little. i like to work things out with out going so hard on each other. i care for you and like you alot but i wouldnt dare stress myself over you and the things you may do witout me around. i dnt have time to stress like that. i have a future to create and if it doesnt envlove you then O Freakin well...imma make it on my own. i dnt have to depend on you but you know after all said and done....you get that lonly feeling ike damn when am i gonna get that great guy i really like and that he is the one God placed on your life. ever cry your eyes out to God. and not ask Why just ask what to do...yea..i know how you feel. im the girl who doesnt like her busness out on front st. im not the one you put ur nose in my shit and go tell everyone cause i will find out and it aint gon be pretty. i feel if your grown that you dnt have to remind ppl over and over...they know by the way you walk talk act and by your charecter. it aint bout who business you kow or the latest of what is wrong with other ppl's lives. this is alot i know but its just how i am feeling at this point and time.

life

so im happy but unhappy with certain ppl. wen that happens i tend to say fuck them and move on..i just hate it wen i cnt get ova the shit they do and say and the way they act. i have come to this today that i want my own now. i have it to a certain point but i want my own. i wantmy own so nobody can tell me that i cant use this or that..or naw u cnt drive my car..cause its my own...nobdy can tell me shit wen its my own..on a great note though my business is bout to be on an pooping. so that is grand as hell to me...i really jus feel like some bits of my life will never be the same after u let ppl(ex's) ruining your outlook on men and their goals... ive looked pass that and gotten hurt once again but cnt let that stop me..i want my King whom God made for me and this world of ours. only time will tell and thats Gods plan...but i have to be thankful for everything that God has done in my life. I have a job great bestfriends and family who truly cares for me. i just wonder didi make a mistake in bein with this person..ppl say wen you ask ur self that you answered that question. but i dnt believe that one bit i believe that some times before marriage u have to reassure yourself that God has a plan and you should follow it and not give up...every one has questions...no question is a stupid one...i just know that im a Chasing my dreams every time i open my eyes...cause God has allowed me too.

faith still wrapped up..........................