90...20 naw that a 5

wow chi jus used the 80 20 thing...Wow so i kinda feel like she was right but there is sumthing puzzling me...the fact yo dum hoe done called me from yo damn fone..nigga how dum is that shit...then you both proceed to come in my direction and she ask outloud(ARE PPL SCARED OF MY FONE) BITCH HELL NO!!! WHY THE FUK AM I SUPPOSE TO BE SCARED...i really cant stand dum bitch's..like this is not high school this is college.im gettin a fuckin career after this.you think im goin to let you block ova a nigga who had the "G"..hope he told you but you might already have the meds for that so yall actually make the perfect couple..so is this harsh of me...naw its really not. i rather have said some of this shit to your face but its really a waste of breath that i refuse to use in my day or of lifetime.im so much bigger this this shit. i deserve way much better then this type of BULLSHIT..so bitch Im the f'in 90 and you will always be the f'in 5 nt the 20 not even close..also bitch im need you to learn respect.repsect cause when that bitch ass hoe from back home got disrepectful she got the f'n business n that No F'in Pun(thanks xoxo)learn yo place or imma snap n show you yo place like no otha.n dnt bring yo girls into that shit cause they aint got shit to do with it bitch its a one on one thing baby gal..n i dnt like actin out its jus not lady like. oh n if you really think that those three orgs. want you you gotta anotha thing comin...they gone see right through yo shit so fast you not gone kno what fn hit that face of yours. faithslove is ending..goodnite

new car and new house!!!!!!!!

so God put this person in my mother's life and mine and now i have been givin the biggest blessin of all times. im gettin a new car and a house YES a HOUSE im so thrilled. my own place. Ive wanted one ever since i had my aprtment at crichton. this is bomb for real....cant wait!!! sooo GEEKED

ever.....

ever had sumthin infront of your face and nt goin for it. well he was infront of my face and now i want him back in that spot only thing is the distance and im not comfortable with that. its eating away at me everytime i try ti talk nothin comes out right. i think im scared and thats crazy cuz most times ill go for it and nt think twice. im scared of lonely but im scared that it wont be him in the end. he knows so much. i want us to work but us workin cnt us being at the same damn school. we both need our own lives and him hear n me n nash jus seems to damn scarey. i need him to holed me when i feel dwn. he cnt do that 3hrs away. this sucks big time. i really think he has opened my eyes. but i need to let him kno that. bt how???

time to reflect on 2008 and bring in 2009

reflect in 2008
i went thur two of the biggest loss of my life.
my auntie Josephine and My Bestie of all time Mr. Santez Dibirel
i miss them dearly and wish they could have made it this far as did i.
i met one of the coolest chic's at chase to the wolf macys ever!!
My Chi bestie SunSh!ne! she be the bomb!!
ive made a change in schools dnt kno if that was a great choice just yet.
uuummm i kno what color runs in my veins watch out fall 2k9!!!
ive grown in my FAITH yep!!! God is Amazing in so many ways!!
he has truly shown me the true meaning of friendship and love
i know who my tru friends are and who are just in my life for a season better yet a semester.
Ive learn that i need to listen before i speak sumthin ive never been good at but continue to be judge on...ne who
learn that life is no longer a effin joke and that my dreams are right infront of my effin face WOW!!
Oh OH OH OH
i CUT my effin hair and love it. Its the tru me ive been missin
Sumthin my dear auntie jo taught me was to be tru to me and to who God made me to be.
I learn what will get me off track and who will get me off track yea.
i learn that fo sho
i learn that love will come to me when the time is right and i will never figuare out the time when ever that day will come
ive grown passion for this life ive been given even more
ive learn to concur the day and not to worry about the little things


bringing in 2009

life is going to be grerat as long as Ive got Jesus. J-E-S-U-S!! Yes!!
i will focus on the future in my life and not the past.
i will not let the past try to walk back into my life like nothing even happen
I will wait for Gods work to be done and not try to take over.
call my grandfather more(dads dad) he truly loves me no matter what
will stop and smell this green earth God has blessed us with.
get on my grind even better.
get that all black altima i saw for less then 15000!! NOW!!!
got to bed before the sunrises
find a better job then the informationdesk
work out more alot more
LEARN EVERTHING I CAN ABOUT MY GUITAR!!! (name comning)
Give all i got to God and my family and To MYSELF EVEN MORE!!

No Space for you in my front row...

so i read this note of a friends a few min ago. it started makin sense. there isnt anymore room on my front row.yea so and ex asked me the unthinkable, i said one thing but he knew what i truly said in my heart. the reason being is that i cnt find room in my heart for him. its crazy how you thought you love someone so freakin much but it ends badly then and there truly there is no goin back to fix it or try to fix it.one because most of the family knows what happens and secondly i jsut could never do that to my self. thats just not me. i let go so why cnt he let go and not get in a pissy mood about it. there just isnt enough room in my front row for him anylonger. no one took the seat it just doesnt existist anymore. i cnt bring it back either its just gone for good. like how do you understand something like that yourself...very odd

Turn off MUSIC FREAK

so girls n guys you know wen you have a turn OFF it completely turns you OFF of that person. so i have to rules no pics of any kind can be sent to my phone and the otha way around. another is liein, and bein scared and not being honest bout being scared.
but
Please dnt tell that i shouldnt be scared of a pic nigga trust me that shit didnt scare me it just piss me off.....lol....serious though i think i found the reason why things arent goin to work out. nigga you jus so turned me OFF. i dnt even wanna pick up the phone or answer a text message...yea NO WARNING!!..dnt ever in your life let me kno that you will change my mind... NIGGA NO....NIGGA NO...NIGGA NO...
Liein to me about what ppl said that shit aint cool dnt tell me one thing n a another really went dwn...oh nigga its on like donkey kong!!! NO REALLY NIGGA....I made one nigga cry dnt MAKE me add you to my list.
Tell the damn truth n if you scared nigga this shit def aint gon work
why be scared of showing your feelins aint bein a pu**y I promise fu*k them otha nigga if they think so...they opinion really dnt matter for us gettin together...fell me

Bitch!?!?!?

So this is how i feel....

im gonna be me no matter what.
if that nigga turn me dwn because of the way i look then fuck him he not meant to be in my life.
if they dnt hire me because i have an afro then fuck them i didnt want that job anyways
dnt tell me that you liked my hair n you were just lieing fuck that if you like it then you might as well get us to it now.
bitch never was i that preppy bullshit you said i once was. that aint my shit never will be my shit.
for your info im that G.R.I.T.S. with a 50 tshirts from the years n the love for jeans n sum sandals
bitch your never knew me ever. you only thought you did. kiss my big TOE!
its funny how ally 6 of you talk about sumbdy wen you think you kno but have no damn clue at all.
bitch my krae never did go to that interview with a relaxer in her hair...hahhahahah..
she got that as. bitch her bf jus wanted to see it then she washed that shit out the nite b4 her interview really GOT that ass
oh bitch dnt ever in your life call me bummy. bitch i got my days everybdy do
esp. YOU!!! Got that ass again.
bitch do me a favor n watch me do me n get where i wanna get the job with my skills bitch if they dnt want me because of my hair n not for my skills its not where i wanna be so NO you cant give me money for school to change my hair. btich thats just your trap of gettin my ass when i dun got you ass to many otha times.
oh n get this right i move with my own mind and the only person leading me is my GOD(yea bad to put in here but hey the lord dun heard my pain)
MY GOD yea is right next to me takin the same footsteps with me. even if they are wrong he shows me the right way to go.
So B I T C H
Get a life and learn that this is my and if you aint paying the bills then your words should be NO COMMENT!!!
Thanks have a Great Day B I T C H


Faiths Love