so i love my family dearly and things havent been the best for us latly n it crushes my heart to see my family hurt..so i lost my papa @ a young age...first time i had to deal with death n my faith...yes supa crazy...so 2008 brought crazy things in my life...so my family jus had two family members cum bac into our lives bythemselves.AMAZING how GOD works...ne who....that was the best part then cam march mothers bday on easter how great!!! then the nex day sleepin my lil ass away...nite school was a bitch...and my phone keeps goin off wat in the hell does my mother want at 6 in the dmn mornin..she knoz i like my sleep. sad story short my great aunt of 7 children is the 1st to die..not cool at all GOD like it it so hard like i didnt kno wat to say all i did for days ways cry..natural reaction right...HELLZ NO...not for me...i got find things to do....ie the day my father died went to a friends house to feel normal like i was gonna go back to a normal life...but this wasnt me...so then i get outta the nutt shell n turn to my faith which helped a whole LOT...then school is over come home n its cool bout to start work again...MAKIN money is the greatest thing...well God thru another curve ball at me...best friend adopted brother guy who knows me the freakin best......dies.............how from drowin..WTF????...an artist who hand a big amazing life ahead of him....why him???..go back into my shell n cry like a newbron baby wit a rash on my ass...yea that serious...a guy who i knew knew God n never crossed anyone wrong everyone that came near him loved him just for the person he was...kind.caring.loving.respectful.smart.funny.understanding.loving.creative.thinker.lover.bestfriend...the guy who knew me more then i knew my self is gone n i cnt say sorry for nt callin like i should or for the time i was suppose to come visit wit momz... now ive been givin this test to see if i can handle it again...my cuz who is EA thats got meanin but its her name on here....EA fought thru so many battles in her life its unreal how she made it this far.she has MS...cnt s/p it look it up...it hit hard wen she was married to a jerk face the call a man.he took her kids away n lied n told them momma didnt want them..LIES...so no she is at them point her sis who is EA2 cnt even take care of her....sucks ass n im so damn scared cuz her daugther is look at me for guideness about it all..all i can say is pray cuz i dnt kno what imma do if she leaves us soon..n if you kno me well i dnt like goin to hospitals wen sum one is on the edge....it hurts really bad that i cnt do shyt bout it...so i still idk wat 2 say to them if it happen but im prayin it doesnt happen soon...i want her to be here so bad nex yr..she gotta be there to c legacy in the fam continue...she gotta...
faithslove
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